Academy 5 - Identity 6 - Learning to love denial
Good Evening students
Today I want you to imagine something. Imagine a piece of bread, just one piece. In a lot of ways, bread is one of the crowning achievements of humanity but it goes almost completely unnoticed. You may eat several pieces a day or you may avoid it, but most of you can probably walk to your nearest store and buy a loaf of it. If you have bread and it passes its use by date, you’ll almost certainly throw it away without a second thought. The same goes if you see anything you think might be mould on it, or if it falls on the floor or any other number of situations.
Now imagine you’re starving, how would your thoughts and feelings about a piece of bread change? Would you still ignore it if it was past its best?
On a similar theme, how good do you think a glass of water would taste to someone lost in the desert?
Denial
As the above illustrates, having access to something whenever you want it and in whatever quantities you desire makes that thing worth less and less to you. Conversely when something is rare or hard to obtain you value it highly. If you’re on a diet, you’ll know how good a cheat meal or dessert will taste after a week of avoiding them.
It’s exactly the same with that silly thing between your legs that you’re so fascinated with. You can rub it until you’re raw and release and release and release and think nothing of it, but if you have limitations placed on you, your releases will become treasured and special.
We have a number of students and staff members at the Academy who are in very long-term chastity. The way it’s structured is that they can only earn enough points to be let out in a set amount of time depending on their contract. Some might take at least a year, others 2, 3, 4 or even 5 years. And keep in mind that this is the minimum amount of time before they can be unlocked, if their behaviour isn’t beyond reproach then it can take longer.
Some of the more sadistic trainers even have their employees on rolling contracts. They have to achieve a set number of points in a set time and if they don’t, the points reset and they have to start again from zero.
You might think sissies in these circumstances would jump at a chance to be released outside of their contract but that’s not how it works. Everytime one of Madame Yara’s subjects is anything less than flawless, she’d reduce it to tears by threatening to remove it’s cage and make it squirt. It had internalised the reward and how good it would be and any attempt to take that off it was taken as a very bad thing. Even when she goes into detail about what she’ll do to make it cum, the little thing just digs its heels in and starts agreeing to anything she says to be kept caged.
The counterpart to this is when they have enough points to earn a release. Sometimes the contract will specify the manner but usually, it’s at their owner’s discretion. I can still remember one lucky sissy whose day tied in with the staff summer party. It was allowed to remove its cage and was then surrounded by a large group of dominant women who had been drinking for a couple of hours. The champagne flowed freely and it had instructions, insults, laughter and abuse shouted at it for over an hour until the whole group gave it a 30 second countdown and at 0, it released so hard it passed out with a blissful smile on its face.
When it woke up, it was locked away again and couldn’t remember the ordeal, even when it was shown video evidence!
Erotic Denial
Erotic denial comes in two parts. One is when the denial is for an erotic reason, in the example above sissies sign up to be kept in chastity because they know the release they will eventually own will be worth it.
The second part is where the denial itself is erotic. Think of someone lying on a bed with their hands cuffed to the headboard while their partner teases them.
The most obvious example of erotic denial for sissies is chastity and this is a topic we’ll get to later in the course but for what we’ll cover in this letter, you’ll need to have full access to your clit!
Today we want to give you a fun way to deny yourself and use it to further your sissification. You’ll need to add a new habit to your training book, call it ‘denial’ or ‘control practice’ or whatever works for you. Everytime you want to pleasure yourself you should follow these rules. The exception is when you’re given other instructions from the Academy or where your circumstances don’t allow it (for example when you have to act like a man with a partner).
The Rules
Whenever you first read this is Day 1 you start with a 50% chance of a release and this is the highest you can ever have. So at a stroke, you’ve cut your releases in half and you will treasure them all the more.
You can only do this once a day at the most, everytime you’re pleasuring yourself and you are getting close, you need to go here and roll a 100 sided dice. If the number that comes up is less than your chance of release then you can go ahead a squirt. If not, you have to stop there and then.
Make sure you understood what I said there, you need to roll the dice when you’re getting close, not at the beginning. I know what sissies are like, if you know you’re not allowed to release at the start, you’ll decide not to bother or you’ll only be half hearted, you need to not know the outcome and that way you won’t be tempted to cut corners.
The fun doesn’t stop there! Everytime you release, you need to take 10% off your chance of release. So everytime you get lucky, the chances of you doing likewise tomorrow is lower and can eventually hit 0%.
We don’t want to completely deny you, so you can increase your chances too. 5 consecutive days of playing or 7 non consecutive days (you can only use one of these, 5 consecutive days followed by a days break followed by 2 consecutive days only counts as either 5 consecutive or 7 non-consecutive days, not both!) lets you add 5% to your chance.
Watching a video on your sissy Pornhub account from a category that doesn’t appeal to you also lets you add points. 20 minutes lets you add 5% and a full hour 10% (again, it’s one or the other, watching an hour is only 10%, not 10% and 5%).
You must watch the video and pay attention all the way through and you must continue playing with yourself when you’re watching it (and in case you didn’t read it, it has to be from a category that you don’t find appealing).
You can only add a maximum of 10% on any one day, if you earn more points, tough!
Although we’re doing this to help you improve your releases, we do also have an ulterior motive! You also need to track your arousal levels.
This is very important, how horny are you before you start? How aroused are you before you roll the dice? Outside of this, how horny are you through the day?
Losing control over your ability to freely release should start to drive you wild. Another side effect of long term chastity on sissies at the Academy is that it renders them very tractable. They become incredibly loyal to whoever controls their cage and some Mistresses look on chastity devices as double edged swords at best. It makes training sissies easy and some of them, especially the more old school ones, feel it takes a lot of the fun out of it.
Those of you with the official Training Book can use the release log to track your arousal. You can track your progress on the Daily Habits, mark down when you do the conditioning and then add a line below it where you mark down your releases or when you’re denied.
Rules
For ease of reference:
Maximum release chance 50%
Any release -10%
5 consecutive days +5%
Watch non-appealing video +5%/+10%
Only +10% can be added on any one day
Can only play once per day
One final rule, if you ever lose track or ‘forget’ your current chance of being allowed a release, you have to start from 0%.
Have fun girls, remember that we promised you the chance to have the best sex you’ve ever experienced and today’s lesson is a big step along that path!
