Finalization 9 - Level 1
Let’s get to it
As we left off last time, we’re going to be taking a look at each level one by one, how to make the most of them and maximise your fun and how to deal with moving between them.
In case you forgot, there’s no requirement for you to be anything you’re not. If you’re someone who is firmly ensconced at level 1 and that’s enough for you, then that’s wonderful! I would always urge you to push yourself a little further and see how you feel about it but there’s no shame and you’re not a failure or a bad sissy because you’re not going as far as someone else.
Let’s begin!
Level 1 - Self
As you can probably guess from the title, this level is the most masturbatory one of them. Your sissification is entirely confined to yourself.
This can cover a lot of ground (because sissification is a very broad subject, so limiting ourselves to any three categories will always mean they are very broad), at one end it can be entirely computer and masturbation based, you just love getting off to sissy hypno and that’s it.
At the other end, it could mean that when you’re alone you always present as femme, e.g. you live alone and when you get home, you put on a dress, some makeup and a comfy pair of heels and go about your private life from there.
Your online habits also reflect this. You may have female online accounts, but you don’t share anything of yourself beyond text...and again, as you read this girls remember, no judging and no shaming!
This is from the last letter and is here as a handy reference to make sure we’re all on the same page.
I think it’s fair to say that every sissy starts here barring the very rare (outside of erotic fiction) occurrence of a dominant partner leading/forcing them into sissification.
It begins as an itch you can never quite seem to scratch until you find it, often sissy hypno or trans porn or femdom, and it speaks to you and opens up a part of yourself you never quite realised existed.
Naturally, you explore more and more and equally naturally, your masturbation will begin to take it into account too. Maybe only a little, especially at first, or maybe a lot. You dip your toe in, find the water is pleasantly warm so you walk in until you’re waist deep and before you know it you’re happily paddling along.
Making the most of it
We’ve done a lot of this during the course! But the way to do it to your own satisfaction is simply by spending time and/or money on it. Doing this will let you make it as fulfilling as you want it to be.
Just as we’re talking about levels to your sissification, when you look closer there are gradations here too. Sitting and watching a sissy hypno while you rub yourself can be a lot of fun...but how much more fun is it if you’re in lingerie, maybe some light makeup and have your glossy, painted lips wrapped around a dildo?
How much fun would it be to set aside a few hours, an afternoon or a day every week to indulge your sissy side, knowing throughout the week that you’ve got it to look forward to?
It doesn’t even have to be a lot of money. Panties, stockings, suspenders, lipstick can all be had very cheaply and then the only limits are down to you and your imagination!
There are plenty of sissification themed games you can lose yourself in for an idle hour or two...or maybe you spend all day locked in chastity seeing how many men you can get off in chat rooms and you’ll only take the cage off and squirt if you manage 10 or 20?
Don’t be too worried if you try and talk yourself out of it at some point, this is fairly natural because society still has issues with sex as something that has value in and of itself, think of how people just accept that women “don’t enjoy sex”. This would be a sad state of affairs if it were true, but if it was, why isn’t anyone doing anything about it? Because for a lot of people, sex is still viewed as been entirely for procreation not for pleasure so women should just sit back and think of shoes.
Fantasy and imagination are amazing, spending money to fulfil your fantasy isn’t bad, it’s not wrong and it’s not a waste. It’s nothing you need to feel guilty about.
Even if you’re at a “higher” level this is still something you can do for yourself because there should always be room for “me time” and self care. As a sissy, it’s natural to be concerned about everyone else and taking care of their needs but that doesn’t mean you get to use that as an excuse to neglect yourself.
Going further
So you want and maybe, really, really want to move to level 2 and/or 3 but you just can’t seem to do it. Maybe you’ve come sooooooooo close, arranged hook ups and ghosted or pulled out at the last minute (that’s his job sweetheart 😉 🍆💦) or you haven’t even gotten that far yet, but you want to. How do you get over that hump?
Stepping out
The first step is to work out what’s stopping you. Is it an external reason such as the country/city etc where you live or is it an internal reason such as fear? If it’s your location then you can change that by moving elsewhere, either temporarily or permanently, a sissy weekend away in a hotel was de rigueur for many years and is still very popular, especially for sissies with partners/significant others who are either unaware or aware but uninterested in their sissy side.
You might be surprised by how much a change of scenery frees you up inside your mind. When you’re at home, everything reinforces who you are and is weighed down by your past but if you’re miles away in a hotel room then none of that is there and suddenly your true self can emerge unencumbered by it all and you can blossom.
Once you’ve gotten dressed and made up, you can spend the night on Grindr enticing cute boys and it’s also a great way to go out in public en femme, even if it’s just outside your room in the hallway (although meeting a guy in the hotel bar for a drink isn’t the worst idea), because no one who sees you there will know you.
Partners
We’ve danced around this topic a few times and an upcoming letter will deal with an alternative but if you have a “serious” partner, whatever this means to you, but you want to push your sissification onwards you need to decide how you’re going to deal with it before you do anything.
I’m not going to tell you to indulge yourself to whatever extent you desire heedless of any potential consequences but equally, I can’t say you completely ignore this side of yourself either. You’re the one who is the most familiar with your own situation so cheating on them is a decision only you can make but my experience has been that there are plenty of sissies who would benefit significantly from doing exactly this as they are unhappy if not downright miserable and trapped in a life that only compounds this.
Ironically, cheating on their partner would also benefit their partner because being in a relationship with someone who is happy with themselves and their life is much preferable to someone miserable and restricted.
As I said, if this describes your situation, it’s a decision that only you can make and it’s one that you should be aware of the potential consequences of. If it’s what’s holding you back then you almost certainly are and uncomfortable though it may make you, you need to face it before proceeding. Sucking someone off doesn’t “just happen” and no one falls face first onto a cock by mistake, by now you should be strong and secure enough in your sissyness to deal with this like a big girl.
You
This is maybe the hardest one to deal with, what if the thing stopping you is you? It’s easy to say I can’t do it because everyone around here knows me or because I have a wife but if it’s because “I just can’t” then you don’t have anything external to blame, it’s on you.
If this is the case then again, a change of scenery can help. As well as getting you out of a problematic location it will also get you out of yourself and there’s the added pressure of having spent money to do it, so wasting it just to sleep in a different bed may just be the push you need.
Quite a lot of the course has been aimed to get you over this bump too, because it’s almost always the case that your strongest ally AND worst enemy are inside your head and it’s your choice which one you strengthen and listen to.
Go back and read the letters on dating in Modules 8, 9 and 10 and repeat the steps we covered there. Get comfortable sex chatting with guys as a sissy and sharing pictures of yourself (face obscured or pixelated in line with your comfort level).
Over time, switch from online chat rooms to using Grindr again, just for chatting. Don’t make any promises, especially if you have a habit of not following through, just chat to (horny) guys and have some naughty chat based fun with them. Maybe you’ll find you have points of interest with them or one of them is just so charming and manages to talk their way past your defences but as you keep doing it, you’ll realise that it’s not as scary as you thought and as your body gets used to it.
Your job is to make the next step seem smaller and smaller so your doubts begin to vanish and it starts to seem sillier not to take it.
Homework
Last time you were doing Yoga and this time you’re looking at dance! Do a short dance workout and then follow it with a dancing themed porn video (ballet is probably the most common form featured in pornography).
Then the next day, reverse the order so you have porn and then exercise.
Before you begin, insert your largest plug. If this means you have to go a little slower when you’re exercising that’s ok. Their aim is to get your juices flowing not to give you a challenging workout.
See you soon sweetie!
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